Anthony TUDS Johnstone

Still hear you Son saying to me like you always did
"HOW YOU DOING MY LASS"

Tuds was born on the 10th march 1985,at 4.30pm,weighing in a 10lb 3oz.Tuds was my youngest
child,the baby of the family.He as two brothers Baz and Chris,and his sister Mandy.
When Tuds was born he had a club foot,which was a shock to me a the time.He put up with a lot of
prodding and poking when he was a baby,which upset him most of the time.He screamed for attention
from a very early age and got,a lot of it from his brothers and sister,they adored him,he was there
little dumpling man,he was so cute,(but never shut up).

He had an operation on his foot when he was 20months old.After the operation we never looked back,as
he grow older he had one foot smaller than the other,they was 4 sizes different,Tuds would call his
foot his little Putter as he got older,he would never let anyone see his feet,he did not want anyone
to know.
Tuds was always a good at sport his foot never stopped him,at school he was always first,second or
third in running,he loved his football,many a time playing football,his boot would fly across the
football pitch,he would just laugh about it.
Tuds was about 9yrs old when he first started to support Aston Villa.Family and his friends would
take the mick out of him,saying what you supporting Aston Villa for,he would say but i want to be
diffrent from my mates.I will never forget the first time he got tickets to go and see Aston
Villa.It was xmas and we got him his first Aston Villa strip,inside the shirt we hid tickets to go
and see Aston Villa,as he come to try on the shirt a envolope fell to the floor,he said whats
that,we said we don't know he opened the envolope and saw the tickets,well he was that excited he
started to jump up and down on the furniture,shouting mam,dad its what i wanted,i can't wait to go
see them,he had to wait to middle of January to get to see them,it could'nt come quick enough, he
was so happy and exicted.He went to see Villa play as often as he could,his mate rick became a big
fan too,the both of them only know one other person in Carlisle he followed Villa.Tuds was dedicated
to Villa even though he said they were useless,but Tuds stuck by his team.
Tuds was a hard working young man he always liked to be kept busy.Tuds occupation was a Tyre
Fitter.He loved his cars,that was his life.He had his girlfriend Rebecca,he was with Rebecca for
4yrs,they had just spilt up 2 wks before Tuds lost his life.
If you ever met him you would know how hard it was to resist him. Tuds had such a way about him he
was always there to help anyone in need. He would always have a hand to help you. He befriended
everyone he met.
Tuds lived life the way Tuds wanted to live it full of energy and kindness and love and being him
self.
Tuds just loved making others happy if you were happy he was to.He was such a good natured lad,and
was just fun loving young man with so much to give us.
I know that everyone he met he touched in some way or another you couldn't help but be touched by
him.
Tuds loved living life to the full and that is what he did he did he loved challenges.Tuds never
judged anyone he took you as you were as he wanted you to take him.he was nothing make believe just
honest and fun loving and being Tuds.
He always kept us on our toes and he liked it that way,never knowing what he was doing next,he hated
smokers and if it was anyones last fag,he would say to them giz a puff,take the fag,stub it out and
say its bad for ya.was Anti drugs as well.
Tuds had many friends and friends that truely loved him and I know he touched them all in some way
or another.

But on Apirl 29, 2007 my son was taken from us the hardest day of our lives was to lose him.Tuds
still had so much more living to do, so much more life to live, He was taken from us all to soon.
This day will not be forgotten the day Tuds was taken from us a young man,so loved by all.
His friends i have so much pride for they helped us organize Tuds funeral,which i did not mind
because we wanted a celebration of Tuds life.His friends all worn Aston Villa tops,with TUDS NO 1
wrote on,they carried Tuds into Church with a ASTON Villa flag draped over his coffin,while the
song I'll BE MISSING YOU was playing.I have great respect for his friends,thats why Tuds loved them
as well,great bunch of lads.
We love you Tuds and you will forever be in our hearts until we meet you again on the other side.

A LETTER FROM REBECCA

On that very sad day when you were so tragically taken it's hard to say how i felt. Lost, frightened
and scared dont start to describe it. In a strange way i felt calm, like you were there watching and
willing me not to cry.

When the rain came down at your funeral the heavens opened just for you and the sun came out when
you were at rest to let us know that you were safe. I know you'll still be looking after all your
mates and your family especially. Hope you know they will always be like my family and always be
special to me.

Your Mam asked me to find some songs that you liked. The Worlds Greatest by R. Kelly came to me from
nowhere. I knew you loved the song and knew your family would love it and they did. It described you
perfectly! My bonny boy!!

While your mates knew Tuds the lad of lads,the life and soul, the leader, i knew and love Tony a
deaper side of Tuds that was kind, caring, loving and totally spoiled by me! I think i knew you
better than i knew myself.

Not a day goes by when i dont think of your smiling face and all the good times we had during our
time together. Even though it felt like an eternity to you it just wasn't long enough for me and now
it never will be. I'll keep my engagement ring safe and close to my heart forever and always. Our
little pooch Tizz misses you too (dont tell anyone though cos she'll get upset!!)

You are and always will be 'The World's Greatest' to everyone that knew you.

Miss you so much,

Love Always

RECECCA x x x

LOVE ALWAYS

WHEN TIMES WERE HARD YOU'D MAKE ME SMILE,
YOU'D NEED YOUR SPACE AND LEAVE FOR A WHILE,
ALL THE WHILE I ALLWAYS KNEW YOU'D BE BACK ,
BEING AWAY FROM ME YOU NEVER COULD HACK.

OUR LOVE FOR EACH OTHER WAS SO STRONG,
THATS WHY ALL OF THIS SEEMS SO WRONG.
I CANT BELIVE NOR UNDERSTAND,
THAT NEVER AGAIN WILL YOU HOLD MY HAND.

EVERY TIME I FEEL LOST OR IN THE BLUE,
I KNOW I WILL ALLWAYS THINK OF YOU ,
DRIVING AROUND THE HEAVENS IN YOUR CAR,
OVER HILLS AND THROUGH VALLEYS NEAR AND FAR.

RIGHT NOW ITS SO HARD FOR ME TO CRY,
COS I KNOW THIS ISNT REALLY GOODBYE,
I KNOW THAT YOU WILL ALLWAYS BE HERE,
WITH THE ANGELS OR SOMEWHERE NEAR.

X UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN MY ANGEL X

LOVE ALWAYS REBECCA

A POEM WRITTEN BY REBECCA TO TUDS FAMILY

The day you called and gave the news,
the world was lost in a sea of blues,
it isn't real,it can't be true,
why did it have to happen to you?

As a family you're all so strong,
this can't be right it has to be wrong,
you must all now stand united like an army,
keep him with you and forever barmy.

The day God took your precious boy,
when he was out in his favourite toy,
will from now on be TUDS DAY,
its the last Sunday before May.

Please remember to never forget,
that he hasn't quite left completely yet,
i know its right and it is so true,
theres is a bit of him in every one of you.
XXXXX

No words I write can ever say
How much I miss you every day.
As time goes by, the loneliness grows
How I miss you, nobody knows
I think of you in silence,
I often speak your name,
But all I have are memories
And photos in a frame.
No one knows my sorrow,
No one sees me weep,
But the love I have for you
Is in my heart to keep.
I've never stopped loving you
I'm sure I never will
Deep inside my heart,
You are with me still.
Heartaches in this world are many
But mine is worse than any.
My heart still aches as I whisper low,
"I need you and I miss you so."
The things we feel so deeply
Are often the hardest to say,
But I just can't keep quiet any more,
So I'll tell you anyway.
There is a place in my heart
That no one else can fill;
I love you so, my precious son,
And I always will.
MAM XXXXX


OUR SPECIAL ANGEL TUDS

Our boy Tuds is a Special Angel,
But not only in my heart he lives,
He will always be that Special Angel,
To his friends and family he Loved.

As time goes by,some people do forget,
That our boy Tuds was one of the best,
Family and Friends do drift a part,
Only the faithful,hold Tuds in there hearts.

Our boy Tuds now rests in heaven above,
In Gods garden,a paradise of love,
We can,t forget our Special Angel,
Because our boy Tuds gave so much love.
XXXXXX